A Journey Back: Week 2

Starting Weight – 233 lbs

New Weight – 230 lbs

I have to be honest, that was a tough first week. Eating all natural doesn’t seem like a large task but when you’re used to eating whatever you want it’s not easy.

So far the biggest hurdle for me are the cravings. I love Mexican food and I love sweets.

These cravings don’t just stop at the simple craving though, it even gets your mind involved. And it’s interesting how your mind will twist you into thinking ‘it’s okay if you slip up a few times’. I was quietly sitting on my couch watching Netflix eating an apple with peanut butter, and then my mind starts dragging me to this place where I can’t stop thinking about a ginormous Chipotle burrito bowl right in front of me. My first thought was no way in hell. And then the more I thought about it my mind started trying to convince me, “You’re an adult, you can eat whatever you want.” I almost believed it. But then I countered with, “I’m an adult and I’m responsible for my health.” That seemed to shut the voice up, at least for that moment in time.

But when you decide to eat all natural it’s not just a battle against yourself and your cravings, you’re battling food prices, convenience, going out on the weekends, your friends and your family, and time as well.

Eating healthier is usually more expensive than just eating whatever you want, even more so when you decide to eat all natural. Fruits and vegetables don’t always last very long so you have to be careful how much you buy at a time and budget correctly. And then there’s the fact that you’re going to eat more of them because that’s really all you can eat, driving the price up that much more.

And over are the days where I can just hop on Grubhub at work and order my lunch to be delivered right to my door. It has to be prepared by me the night before. And good luck driving around town to find a restaurant or place to stop and grab a quick bite. My only option is a grocery store and it’s not likely something I can just pop in the microwave.

I’m even starting to feel guilty because going out with friends is going to be a task. I’m going to be that guy that doesn’t order food and sips on a water while they’re all enjoying what looks like heaven in a basket. Will the server think I’m just a broke punk using up space that could be used for a paying customer? Will my friends be annoyed that I’m not joining in on the fun with them? And then on top of that, it will take every ounce of strength I have not to reach my hand across the table and steal a simple fry. And who knew it would be so fun to eat? I don’t know how and I don’t know why, but it definitely is.

Needless to say, the important part though is I’ve stayed on plan. And the fact that I lost three pounds in five days is enough to keep me motivated. But it won’t be getting any easier and by my estimation it’ll only get harder each and every day leading up to the day where I’m able to reward myself. And did I mention my birthday is right in the middle of this so called ‘journey’? Not sure if that was a good idea or not, but if I haven’t broken by then it’s fair to assume I won’t be having any cake this year.

Regardless, I’m satisfied with the results so far and I feel pretty good even considering the intense cravings I’ve had all week. I’ll count week 1 a success and I’m going into Week 2 ready to go.

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